So yesterday was a weird one. I woke up to 4 missed calls 9 texts and a bunch of Facebook messages. Apparently I killed myself.
Not a nice thing for people to think might have happened and unfortunately someone actually did.
It all came from a miss explained post.
Pete is Steve’s cousin. And from this note, you might interpret that I wasn’t with us anymore – The RIP Ben bit.
It was in fact a man called Ben Stone. – I found out later, and once you know that it’s a very sad post. Another poor man, another poor family hit by suicide. And poor Pete for going through another suicide in his life.
In those hours between knowing it was a mistake about me, friends were worried. Friends believed it. One even said it was the worst 2 hours of his life. Which is quite flattering.
Unfortunately I didn’t know Ben Stones, by as it hit home my concerns were for all the people who read it, thinking that I had died. I also began to worry about Pete.
What had happened?
He had posted it at 2 am – I know he runs a pub, so was it a late finish or was he drunk, was he distraught. Did he think it was me? Or had he lost someone else and had miss tagged him.
That was sort of the case. He Knew it was Ben Stone, and wanted to make me aware of another man talking his own life – I just happened to be call Ben as well.
It was really interesting to think about it.
The people who checked. Those who knew it was a mistake and those who may have seen it and maybe didn’t know what to do. But that’s how quickly it can happen. Someone saying this has happened and you are suddenly looking at the world differently.
When my mate Gibbo found out I was ok, he asked me if….
“Be honest with me have you got some social stunt happening presently?
It had Me and Das totally freaking out.”
To which I replied. “That’s a very dark way of raising awareness (and I’m not the clever)”
My condolences are with Ben Stones family. I am sorry they are going through this. I wish they weren’t. I’m thankful I’m still alive (i was always here, it was just a bit weird to think people might think I’m dead) and all the messages since have actually made me feel really loved and know that if I ever got to that very dark place then there’s lots of people who love me and want me here.
It’s such a shame Ben Stone didn’t get that chance. Because I know the world is better place with him in it. I hope you all know that the world is a better place with you in it. Because suicide is preventable. And I don’t want to get “that” message about anyone reading this.